why are you so paranoid?

kanye has been and always will be my favorite artist in the game. since he first came on the scene he hasn’t gotten the respect he deserves but honestly he is a great emcee and all around entrepreneur. he is truly artist and every video he has continues to surprise me. i am sweating him and my dream would be do work with him one day. but isn’t that all of our dreams. haha

assassin’s creed 2.

i will let this trailer speak for itself. i loved the first one and this one looks even crazier. check it out.

video game nerd.

ok so i have been home all day today just watching tv and relaxing. havent done this in a while since i was working for a while. but i was lucky to catch the e3 coverage of ea sports and microsoft. for those of you that know me well know that i love video games. i am a huge closet nerd but once you know me you know how bad i am. haha. well i was shocked at alot of games. the new halo game looks promising. madden ’10 looks good too and now we can start our own seasons online and challenge people. almost like fantasy drafts. pretty tight. and i am also excited for left 4 dead 2. i recently bought the first game and i am hooked. but the next one looks insane. check out this trailer. i am going to post these all day when i find games i cant wait for so check them out.

birthday sex.

ok so when i first heard this song i thought it was wack. but it grew on me. and honestly it is pretty sick. and since it is my birthday in about a week i figured what the heck. maybe i will get laid. HAHA. enjoy guys.

so far gone.

if you havent heard this mixtape you are slacking. like i said it is my job to keep you all in the loop so download it now. there is no excuse its free music. lol. drake – so far gone mixtape.  check it out now!

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WOW! lady gaga is so freakin’ hot. i don’t even care about the song. look at this chick. the next britney and she is even better. definitely want to play a lovegame with her. HAHA.

never again.

i feel the need to voice my frustration today. so i have been waiting all week to see drag me to hell with my boy eduardo and today was the day. so we are pumped to watch it at 12:15 tonight and we get in and the screen is blurry. so i went to tell the manager to fix it and they did. so the movie starts and for the next thirty minutes there is non-stop talking. -_-.i was pissed. i understand when a scary movie by sam raimi can have its funny moments but why would you have the need to have a conversation about the movie while it is going on. i feel people have no respect for anymore and honestly its ridiculous. nevertheless we walked out and complained and got our money back and free tickets so i guess they knew we were pissed. that made up but still that is fail. i don’t get why ghetto people go to the movies to talk. just go to someones house and do that geeze. well i feel better now. hopefully i can see it tomorrow and not run into the same situation. thanks for reading this i feel a whole lot better. later guys.

walking on the moon.

i feel like it is my job to provide my followers with good music since i myself am constantly searching online for the new songs and cd’s that are being released. some people cant believe where i get songs from but you can call me the name i was dubbed by my friend, mr. exclusive. enjoy this song the-dream feat. kanye west – walking on the moon. cant go wrong with a kanye track and the-dream impressed me on his new album. his sound is evolving and he resembles and old school michael jackson in this song. enjoy.

Nostalgia.

Once again I find myself thinking of you. Not you as a person in general but many things. Things that continue to haunt me from the past. The temptations of the world continue to take control of my life and I find it harder and harder to escape. Every time I feel I have conquered you I am reminded it is only for that one second. I think I try to escape you and fall into bigger temptations. I pray for guidance and strength to get me past you but once again your power is consuming. Why do I find myself falling into your constant traps. I feel like an idiot. I find myself holding on to false hope. I wish things could be the way they used to be but honestly we both know that cant happen. You are in a point in your life where you see right through me. I feel invisible. The hurt I have caused you will never escape your mind and I may never get another chance. I accepted that. But I feel a part of you is still holding on yourself. I feel confused as to whether or not you want what we have wanted all along. You are there when you want to be and when its not convenient or you are unsure I am pushed away and hidden in your closet until you decide to find me again. I am not your puppet anymore. I have feelings too even though you feel I am like every other person who has hurt you I am not. I made mistakes yes. I was not myself and that is no excuse. But honestly you have hurt me too. I feel I cant love again. I feel I am missing out on joy in life because I am constantly hoping that you will return. So I grab a bottle or try to smoke my problems away. Not anymore. I made a decision and I messed up. But we all do. No one is perfect but I know this time I will not fall again. I wont let you control me anymore. From now on my life is mine. I hope you can understand because if you love someone you let them go, and if they are meant to be they will come back. I will always love you but you didn’t see how much I did. Take care and if we meet again it was fate. But if not enjoy your life as will I. And I will reminisce about the good times.

this is only a test.

hello world! my is alex vivaldi and i am sure you don’t know a lot  about me so this blog is dedicated to informing you on how incredibly awesome i am. i am 19 years old and i am currently residing in the orlando, florida. i am a college student and i am hoping to finish with my aa degree in business administration by the end of this year. and that leads us to my present dilemma. i am deciding on whether to make a drastic change and potentially move to chicago since i visited my older brother this spring break and i loved it there. i guess i am so used to be sheltered in orlando that i feel it is time for me to get out on my own and experience life on my own. so i am thinking about moving there to finish my bachelors degree and just start a new chapter in my life. or i might stay here and pursue my dreams of music more since i have so many connections here. so i am really looking for god to point me in the right direction and see what he has for my life. well guys this is me in a nutshell. i hope you were all informed and you continue to follow my blogs because i am pretty awesome and if you dont you really are missing out. well i have dragged this test out as long as possible and i am sorry for making you read this and distracting you from whatever you were doing. and now back to your regular scheduled programming.